Saturday Update: Refocused

Here’s how I did on my goals that I set last week:

  • Eat according to Paleo at least 90% of the time.  Yes!  And my “cheats” were really noncaloric ones (diet ginger ale and diet mtn dew).  I still need to work on finding satisfying paleo-friendly snacks.
  • Run 3x including a six-mile run and one set of repeats.  Sort of.  Last weekend my long run got cut short by a series of unfortunate events (more on that later) but I did run three times this week.
  • Strength training 2x.  Yes!  I did 30 minutes on the exercise bike plus my strength training twice.  Just two weeks off and I’m crazy sore all over again!
  • Yoga! Or meditation!  Or some kind of specific stress relief that doesn’t involve chips or chocolate!  Nope!  I need to take care of this, but didn’t get it added in to the plan last week.  I’ll try again next week.

So, last Saturday I just didn’t get my act in gear early enough to get my run started before Eli’s soccer practice and game and it’s gotten so hot and humid here already that if I’m not out at dawn, it’s just miserable.  So, I moved my long run to Sunday.  And I still procrastinated so that I didn’t get out of the door until around 9am.  Here are all the things that ended up making me quit my planned six mile run after three miles:

  • Ugh it was hot and humid and so very very sunny.
  • I started off way, way, way too fast.  Last year I was able to run six miles at a ten minute mile pace or a little faster.  Well, that was when I was fifteen pounds lighter and much better trained.  Apparently, just wanting to be able to run six miles in under an hour doesn’t mean you actually can run six miles in under an hour.  Who knew?
  • I didn’t eat anything before going out.  Why?  I have no idea.  I also didn’t bring any fuel for the run.  One hour is kind of the middle ground of when I need to have something to give me a little extra energy.  I’ve only got one Gu left and I was saving it for the Spud Run next weekend.
  • I saw two huge snakes, one of which I had to pass several times.
  • There was an unleashed, unaccompanied dog on the route I was lapping who was limping and had a bunch of drool hanging out of his mouth.  It kind of freaked me out and definitely spooked me.  So, I took that as the final sign and just headed home.  IMG_1713

I have gotten into a bad habit of not pushing through the pain/discomfort of running further and harder.  In the past, when I felt like walking, I’d talk myself into pushing a little harder and a little longer.  Over the last year, when I feel like walking or slowing down, I’ve been walking or slowing down.  Which is absolutely fine if I’m just out there for general fitness, but if I actually want to meet my performance goals then I have to get back in the mindset of an athlete and figure out how to want it enough to keep pushing when it’s hard.  I think part of my problem is that when I got put on blood pressure medicine a year ago, it shook my vision of myself as an athlete and also gave me a bit of paranoia about dropping dead during a tough workout.  I just have to get over it!

In other news, I saw this the other day.  I have no idea who came up with it, but it really spoke to me.  ValueI’ve thrown my name into the hat for a lot of stretch goals and opportunities over the last year (both blog-related and my “real job” related and have ended up not being one of the chosen few invited to the dance.  It’s stung from time to time and has added a few new cracks to my self confidence, but I truly believe that:

  • Those who were chosen (for all of the experiences/jobs/events) are talented, hard working and absolutely deserve the opportunities they have been given.  And I’m genuinely happy for them!
  • The success of others in no way diminishes my own accomplishments.
  • There’s more than enough in this world to go around; the universe is infinitely abundant.
  • While recognition and rewards are sweet, nothing is worth doing if you don’t do it for deeper and more important reasons.

So, regardless of any outcomes, I’m going to keep on keeping on with writing, traveling, running, playing and exploring.  I am continuing to scale back my efforts to promote/advertise/share my blog content to focus my efforts more on actually working out, eating healthy, playing with my family and finding adventures.  I love the writing, I don’t love “selling the blog” or even caring about the number of followers or page views I have.  Back to basics.  Refocus.  Recommit.

For next week:

  • Eat according to Paleo at least 90% of the time.
  • Run 3x including a six-mile run and one set of repeats.
  • Strength training 2x.
  • Yoga! Or meditation!

I got attacked by the first yellow fly of the season (if you don’t live in Florida, you may not know about these blood sucking monsters, but they’re nasty, aggressive and I’m pretty sensitive to them) on my last run, so I’ll have to adjust my running times and routes for the next couple of months to avoid them. I’ve also been struggling with cramps in my right calf on a couple of runs (and an awful charlie horse in the same muscle on Tuesday night) which led me to cancel my repeats this week and to just focus on getting the miles in.  Next Saturday is the Spud Run 10k and I have to accept that while I can set a challenging time goal, it’s not going to be a PR or a sub one hour at this point.    Refocus.  Recommit.  I’ve got this, it’s just going to take a little longer than I hoped.


Saturday Update: Refocused — 14 Comments

  1. What an honest and heartfelt post!!

    Congrats on meeting most of your goals last week! I too need to add some yoga/meditation to my routine. Although running and working out is a stress reliever for me, I think yoga or meditation would be a nice addition!

    Your opportunities will come to you when it is your time. I know it sounds cliche but everything does happen when it is suppose to and although other opportunities have passed, the right one will come around.

    Enjoy your day and have a Sensational Saturday!

    • Thanks! I do believe the right opportunities will come at the right time. I know I’ve gotten opportunities that I thought I wanted and that turned out to be not at all what I expected, kind of the “be careful what you wish for” kind of thing. I hope you have a great Saturday too!

  2. I needed that quote about our value this week too. You’re right, what opportunities do or don’t come our way have nothing to do with our worth in relationship to others. You still rock no matter the outcome of those things. 🙂 Great job getting back on focus with the food and strength training this week!
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  3. I completely understand the heat and humidity thing. It’s hard for me to accept how much difference it makes. Sometimes I chastise myself for too much blogging…quit reading and writing about running and just GO DO IT. So, kudos to you for doing that! You’ll do great with your refocus and commitment.
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    • Every winter I forget how awful the heat and humidity are. And every spring, I whine about it incessantly! 🙂 Thanks for the positive comments! 🙂

  4. I love that you always see the positive in things even when they don’t go the way you want.

    I also struggle with knowing when to “push” through and when to listen to my body. I say on training runs listen to your body and in races “push through” the discomfort if you can. But then again I would find myself ( when I was running) trying to push through all my training runs. We runners are stubborn like that, right? But when I am injury free i’m really gonna start doing things differently next training cycle. Have a good weekend April!
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    • It’s such a tough line to walk. Pushing hard enough to make progress, but not so hard that you get injured or overtrained. I guess that’s why people need coaches! 🙂

  5. You’re doing great! I’ve got Tinker Bell the week after next and I’ve only gone up to 8 miles, and that was three weeks ago. It aint’ gonna be pretty!
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    • Thanks! I bet you’ll have a great race at Tink! I can’t wait to read about it.

  6. great post-I love honest posts like this. getting back into does take some time and it seems like you are working towards it! however I am not looking forward to summer and the heat and the early morning runs

    • Thanks! I am fine with slow progress as long as I’m headed in the right direction. And yes, having to roll out of bed and hit the road to avoid the heat is not my favorite thing!

    • Yellow flies are the embodiment of evil. I’m actually still a bit traumatized after getting swarmed by them last year on a trail. So now even one makes me completely freak out. And I’m kind of over the snakes spectating my runs thing too. 🙂